Daze and Confusion daze and confusion soon turn to reality unity become entity quickly and ones future become’s once again, a mystery. such certainty become lies time has no essance anymore because its accompanied by loneliness a heart that you lived to hear beat, slows the mind that was once so in sync, reboots a being made to serve, trust, and protect left dogged, decieved and deprived respect was the minimum requirment, that was hardly met how does this happen? a nieve love open, honest, trusting, deep, passionate, loyal, never-ending, cosmic, sacraficial love love that didnt have to love back love that didnt even have to be real a dream that was so beautiful, getting lost was what you were supposed to do daze and confusion soon turn to reality whats real is the pain… -lucid

Daze and Confusion

daze and confusion soon turn to reality

unity become entity quickly and ones future become’s once again, a mystery.

such certainty become lies

time has no essance anymore because its accompanied by loneliness

a heart that you lived to hear beat, slows

the mind that was once so in sync, reboots

a being made to serve, trust, and protect

left dogged, decieved and deprived

respect was the minimum requirment, that was hardly met

how does this happen?

a nieve love

open, honest, trusting, deep, passionate, loyal, never-ending, cosmic, sacraficial love

love that didnt have to love back

love that didnt even have to be real

a dream that was so beautiful, getting lost was what you were supposed to do

daze and confusion soon turn to reality

whats real is the pain…

-lucid

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Devilish eyes… (Taken with instagram)
EbonyKing by Lucid
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highdepthstudio: Sharkeez! Shark Attacks… CobieRokLucid #LandSharks #SoCal !!! Yea!
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Lucid drawing…crayon painting sketch 
“Getting my shit ALL THE WAY TOGETHER , then ill be back…gotta refocus, take all ive learned and seen, process, learn and project it the exact way i want to…rushing it out isnt working so just be patient”
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mind my mind  i feel, in my current state, the harsh and confusing tricks it plays on me. the realization of this confines me to my room. stuck in bed. thinking of ways to escape this interanal isolation and ridicual i seem to place on myself. get high, sleep, drink. im running out of options. my mind has a mind of its own. I feel completely and totally separate from it, proving to me that my soul is much stronger then my mind. the thoughts, possibilities, dreams, realities. i just want it to stop. i just want for once, to not think. i just for once to stop thinking. thinking of everything ive done, can do, will do, havent done right, every flaw and perfection, how to start, how to stop, how to end it all, other people, the comparisons and extreme differences between myself and a typical 21 yr old female. the thinking just doesnt stop. i feel deep down the one person who could prob help me, just doesnt want to, my dad. i try to feel worth something to the world. cause i have such a gift, but then i think… im terrified of myself right now. i dont know if what im thinking are delusions and exaggerations or if im just not used to being within my sober mind. ending my rant, i suppose you could say im lost. in a complete downward spiral. no idea what to do were to go. i havnt felt this depressed in years and im hoping i can get through this. if there is a god. i hope it hears my thoughts. hears my confusion. and grants me the only thing ive ever prayed for. peace.  Brittni

mind

my mind 

i feel, in my current state, the harsh and confusing tricks it plays on me. the realization of this confines me to my room. stuck in bed. thinking of ways to escape this interanal isolation and ridicual i seem to place on myself. get high, sleep, drink. im running out of options. my mind has a mind of its own. I feel completely and totally separate from it, proving to me that my soul is much stronger then my mind. the thoughts, possibilities, dreams, realities. i just want it to stop. i just want for once, to not think. i just for once to stop thinking. thinking of everything ive done, can do, will do, havent done right, every flaw and perfection, how to start, how to stop, how to end it all, other people, the comparisons and extreme differences between myself and a typical 21 yr old female. the thinking just doesnt stop. i feel deep down the one person who could prob help me, just doesnt want to, my dad. i try to feel worth something to the world. cause i have such a gift, but then i think…

im terrified of myself right now. i dont know if what im thinking are delusions and exaggerations or if im just not used to being within my sober mind. ending my rant, i suppose you could say im lost. in a complete downward spiral. no idea what to do were to go. i havnt felt this depressed in years and im hoping i can get through this. if there is a god. i hope it hears my thoughts. hears my confusion. and grants me the only thing ive ever prayed for. peace. 

Brittni

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“havent gotten out of bed in 3 days…scary how lost i feel”
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“I find when im depressed…i come up with masterpieces..its the only time i actually have my mojo”
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HerUniverse by Lucid
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“Everyone is to cool for school when it comes to art now and days…just cause its ‘dope’ doesnt make it ART..im really judgmental of artist now and days simply cause i know my history and get truly offended when people show more respect for the ‘dope’ artist and not the purest who actually has something to say..such as myself..but thats the world we live in i guess”
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Preview of my newest work…not sure what its based on yet„but im going with it.. -Lucid
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You know your high when: xhappy-endings: You can clearly hear your heartbeat LOVE THAT PLACE! only been that high twice…. (via happye-ndings-deactivated201202)

You know your high when:

xhappy-endings:

You can clearly hear your heartbeat

LOVE THAT PLACE! only been that high twice….

(via happye-ndings-deactivated201202)

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“this love is like playing russian roulette with the gun pointed over my heart. i literally feel the anxiety and pain of the knowing it could kill me at any second…im tough enough to stand firm though”
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